Donald Trump, a despicable human being, won the presidential election last night, and I am scared out of my mind about what he might do.

• How many troops will die in a war he is almost certain to start?
• How many poor people will die without the care they would have received from the Affordable Care Act, if he succeeds in dismantling it?
• How many LGBTQ individuals will lose their job when laws protecting them are torn apart?
• How many blacks will be jailed or killed while we make America great again (read: reverting to a time of overt, unjustified, and officially sanctioned racism)?

I wonder whether the political system is strong enough to prevent Trump and his Republican Senate and House from destroying Social Security, reversing gay marriage rights, or repealing Roe v. Wade. Whether we’ll be strong enough to prevent the start of a faux-democratic dictatorship. Whether Trump and the Supreme Court justices he ends up appointing will eventually demolish the social gains we’ve made through FDR’s New Deal and LBJ’s Great Society.

I hated Nixon, and I couldn’t stand George W. Bush and his evil sidekick, but I was never as afraid for my country as I am now. I was never as ashamed of my country as I am now. I was never as disgusted with the outcome of an election as I am now.

Presidents tend to moderate once in office, but this president-elect, this destructive, misogynistic, racist, mentally disturbed cretin is different. No one knows what he will do in office, what kind of damage he will do, what kind of havoc he will wreak. We’ve never faced an enemy like this, and it scares me senseless.

Now, maybe he’ll be okay. Maybe he’ll moderate and collaborate. Maybe he won’t be as destructive as I think. If so, I’ll be enormously, eternally grateful.

But I’m not betting on it.

Now, I’ll give the man a chance out of the gate, I really will. I promise.

But I also promise this: If he proves as Trumpy as he has in the campaign, as I believe he will, I will fight as hard as I can any stupid, corrupt, hateful, insane ideas. I will join any rebellion against him and scream with delight when he is finally, inevitably overthrown.